Week 17: Permission!

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I’m writing this on Wednesday but won’t post till Friday.   Somehow, I’m always wondering what else I’ll think of as the week ends!

As we progress from week to week, we grow (ideally).  When we began, my interpretation of our “assignment” was that we would reveal what we had learned and how our thoughts evolved…our evolution as an improved person, as it were.

So, we began our journey -mayday, mayday-I had no evolutionary thoughts!  What to say!  Nothing seemed to be revealed to me.  What do I do now!

Deep breath.  (that seems always to be a good first step.  Think, and re-read the first scroll, class notes, Haanel, and then reinterpret, regurgitate if necessary.  Yeah, that works!  Surely that will do it?

But as the weeks progress, I really needed more, and more of myself surely would be there!

So, this lightbulb has been a bit dim at times, but I felt I was at least at 75 watts Wednesday night when I should have been in bed!  Isn’t it all about Lightbulb moments?

I participated in an interesting online women’s networking event and met a fabulous woman in one of our “rounds”  We really clicked.  I had some ideas for her, she had some for me and in less than 24 hours, we re-connected and scratched out a possible plan to work together in some way helping each other with both of us benefitting!

That got me thinking…wow, if she needs this assistance, how many other women in her profession or others also need this assistance!  and could they also benefit from combining my service to expand theirs?  My mind was racing, and one thought led to another.  All of this transpired because I gave myself PERMISSION  to listen to my thoughts and some inspirational audios, work on a frustrating technical problem which also allowed my mind to wander while I waited for TECH SUPPORT to get back to me.  I blew off a stressful and possibly dangerous drive to NYC and just gave myself PERMISSION to LISTEN.

I don’t know if this draft plan will work out, but, it is movement in the right direction and is consistent with my DMP.  If it works out in the way we think, many people benefit, everyone wins1  How does it get better than that?  What else is possible?

I am enjoying my quiet times when I am open to guidance from powers greater than me!  In this world of being so busy all the time, if we don’t SIT quietly and let our minds go quiet, when will our guides be able to speak to us…and will we hear them?  Listen?  I give myself PERMISSION to listen to be intuitive.  (I think that’s the interpretation we give to when the guides speak to us and we GET IT!)

I’m feeling a little puffed up with excitement so you’ll just have to stay tuned!

I’ll promise to keep it interesting, and…I always keep my promises!

THOUGHT FOR THE WEEK:  There is NO failure, only FEEDBACK!

Keep on, keeping on!

P.S.  NOW I AM THINKING…wow.  what if I had been taught to meditate years ago….where would I be now!  but then….Better late, than never!  Good things come to those who wait…when the student is READY the teacher appears.  : )

(I purposely take liberties with capitalization and punctuation, just to see if you are paying attention.  LOL!  Not really…they are for emphasis.  it’s the creative part of me coming out in a teensy way).  My blog, my rules.  🙂


Week 16: Lightbulb Moments

Lightbulb Moments:

Quantum physics and health….

In this article…. http://rasahealth.com/2014/01/why-can-i-get-better/   Dr. Horowitz expanded this model by devoting an entire  chapter to Meditation and Mind Training as well as providing a 16 point check list that includes:  Immune dysfunction,  Inflammation, Environmental toxins,  Functional medicine abnormalities with nutritional deficiencies, Mitochondrial dysfunction,  Endocrine abnormalities,  Neurodegenerative disorders,  Neuropsychiatric disorders, Sleep disorders,  Autonomic Nervous System Dysfunction and Allergies.

Kudos to Dr. Horowitz.  Yet, even Dr. Horowitz is only looking for the keys where the light has been turned on.


I don’t always know what Charlie Haanel wants me to be thinking about during our sits…so…I just sometimes I just sit quietly and see what falls into my mind.

Sometimes, it takes HOURS  (later) for things to emerge.

So tonight, I’m brushing my teeth and…wow…


I stopped going to see a chiropractor every week because I ran out of money in the bank account that I set aside for that stuff.  Figured I had to figure this out myself.

Well, I started Oil pulling and my joints felt better!  No other pills, no Dr appts.  I decided now…that going to see a doctor put me in the position of being a SICK person.  If I don’t’ have to see a doctor….that must mean I am A WELL PERSON!

OF COURSE!  I AM a well person.  Duh.  No more doctors…just a vat of oil (some tart cherry juice and a few other things, clean diet, mostly plants yada yada …  and I’ll be fine.  Oh…and add a positive MENTAL attitude!  Situation solved.  Whew!

One of my PPNs  (primary pivotal needs)  is PERFECT HEALTH… I have to figure this out so I can HELP OTHER PEOPLE…another of my PPNs.  Well on my way to do that.  Now, trying various oils and may try several times per day.

I also learned that while meditating to sounds may have some beneficial effects….Meditating in silence is when the angels can speak to us.  So…doing more of that too.

We run around so frantically all day, that if we don’t quiet our minds, when in the heck do we think we can have our guiding mentors speak to us?  Never thought of it that way.  I am the LAST PERSON I EVER thought would meditate.  No time.  NO interest….hold a gun to my head, not doing it.  Now…if I even THINK I’ll miss it…I’m in a panic.  Who…me?  Don’t believe it!

Well, time for bed.  If I don’t go now…won’t have enough sleep before my dogs wake me up and then time to start the day and have another READ AND SIT!

Nightey nite!  Sweet dreams.  Be well, Be happy, be QUIET!

Week 15: Insight?

This was indeed a week of introspection and letting things fly into my brain.  I have to admit, I had a tough time getting a grip on our goal for our “sits”.  I think I am of normal intelligence (after all, I am nature’s greatest miracle!) , but, this whole thing confused me.  (am I struggling to let go so that other info can come in?)  No Clue.  (I do love letting go of a perceived need  to always “look smart”.  Heck, if you have to be seen as knowing it all, then you have no need to learn, and for me…learning is where the fun is!  In fact, one of my GRATEFUL cards this week was…

“I am grateful that I don’t know it all;  therefore, learning is still exciting to me!”

But, I digress!  (did I make you smile?  : )  hope so.  I think that must be one of my PPNs.  LOL!)

Haanel says: “focus on the thought of the fact that to have a knowledge of the creative power of thought does not mean to possess the art of thinking.  Let thought dwell on the fact that knowledge does not apply itself.  That our actions are not governed by knowledge,  but by custom, precedent, and habit. That the only way we can get ourselves to apply knowledge  is by a determined conscious effort.  Call to mind the fact  that unused knowledge  passes from the mind, that the value of the information is in the  application of the principle.”

HUH?  Why was this so difficult for me?  Points to ponder…

“We cannot obtain what we lack if we tenaciously cling to what we have.  We are able to consciously control our conditions as we come to sense the purpose of what we attract, and are able to extract from each experience only why we require for our further growth.  Our ability to do this determines the degree of harmony or happiness we attain.”

then this…”  All conditions and experiences that come to us do so for our benefit.  Difficulties and obstacles will continue to come until we absorb their wisdom and gather from them the essentials of further growth. ”

and this….”  that we reap what we sow is mathematically exact.  We gain permanent strength exactly to the extent of the effort required to overcome difficulties. ”

That makes perfect sense to me.  OK..gaining steam here!  Finally in familiar territory.  “if we wish desirable conditions, we can afford to entertain only desirable thoughts.  and if we wish to express abundamce in our lives, we cam afford to think ABUNDANCE ONLY, and as words are only thoughts taking form, we must be especially careful to use nothing but constructive and harmonious language,  which when finally crystalized into objective forms, will prove to our advantage.”

I may not be clear about this week, but it is interesting that some things I needed seemed to be dropping in my lap.  Someone I met at a conference called me to see if she could stay with me for an event…turns out I live thousands of miles from the event, but we began to talk and she told me about something that might just help a situation I’m dealing with.

Then I noticed a post on Facebook, from a nurse I have known for a while.  The topic was close to me so I contacted her and now, we are so in alignment with our goals we are considering working together to help others.

Coincidence?  maybe, but I think it could well be a case of my subconscious working for me even tho I had no idea what was going on.  During my sits, I just let my mind wander and do it’s own thing.  Maybe this should be my modus operandi?  Got a lot done this week by doing so!  Who Knew?

How does it get better than this?  What ELSE is possible!

P.s.  I loved adding SHAPES to our “cards”.  I’ve enjoyed doing our mind gym exercises while jumping on my mini-trampoline, listening to Baroque Music, while looking at my vision board.  What ELSE can I add?  I’m making more recordings of affirmations,and music.  Listening to them in my own voice surely will impress my subby!  Of course, jumping on my mini-trampoline, looking at my vision board yada yada…it’s all good!  Woo Hoo!

Week 14: Persistence Personified



What a man!  What Persistence!  Perseverance!  I was thrilled to watch the inspiring movie “Door to Door”, a true story based on the life of Bill Porter, a Portland Oregon native, and masterfully portrayed by William H. Macy.  (Pictured below).

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Bill suffered a birth injury leading to cerebral palsy, and as the movie opens, his mother is helping the then, adult Bill, ready himself for a job interview.  The determination shown by this amazing man is nothing short of …well, I seem to be short on superlatives.

Screen Shot 2014-01-03 at 6.25.51 PMThe state actually considered Mr. Porter unemployable, but Bill refused to accept disability payments.  He was determined to make it on his own.  We watch as he is fIrst turned down for the job, then returns to the interviewer asking to be given a sales route that NO ONE ELSE even wants.  Reluctantly, he is given the  position he covets,  as a door-todoor salesman for the J.R. Watkins  Food and Household Goods Company, and you can just see that the interviewer things this is a lost cause…but, Bill perseveres!  Sales call after sales call, he faces one rejection after another, slammed doors, hostile dogs,  but, he continues his route, undaunted.   Finally…Eureka!  a sale!  a real, SALE!  The look on his face was amazing.  His 40 year career is full of one “salesman of the year” award after another.  Many days he walked eight to ten miles a day, in all sorts of weather.  Nothing stopped him.  I loved the way he seemed to become a part of the lives of the people who eventually became his customers.  Even if they rejected him in the beginning, they softened to his affable nature.  It was very touching how they eventually seemed to grow as a community, linked by this awkward walking man, with a huge heart.  He persisted, he succeeded.

One really has to wonder how many people are made of the same STUFF as this man.  I found him to be totally awe inspiring.

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Sadly , Bill recently passed away…December 6, 2013 at the age of 81.  A real life legend.  I’m so happy to have learned about him, and am in awe of his accomplishments  and accolades.  He was a truly remarkable man.

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Tom Hallman, JR wrote an incredible article about Bill, and you may want to read it here…. 

but I’ll just give you a sneak preview…  this says it all.

Bill touches us so profoundly, apparently, because he reminds us of who we all set out to be. And where we would like to go. He is, first of all, someone from our own branch of the human family. Almost none of us has the God-given talent or spiritual purity to become one of the remote, larger-than-life heroes who loom over our world. Who are we to measure ourselves against the great athlete, the skilled surgeon or the religious saint?

But Bill is a salesman. Each day, he puts his infirmities aside, screws up his courage, goes out into the world and asks others to accept what he has to offer.

So do we all.

Bill reminds us of what we were when we set out in life. He fights the war we call life every day, without complaining. Whatever the internal truth of Bill Porter, we perceive him, in his perseverance, as pure, untouched by the ills of society. He isn’t greedy. He doesn’t take handouts. He — of all of us — could produce a hundred excuses. But he never makes excuses.

His determination challenges us. When we see past Bill’s disabilities, we see the disabilities in ourselves.

That raises questions. Am I working hard enough in my life? Do I have that kind of integrity?

Thank you Bill, and THANK YOU, TOM! for telling the world about this incredible man!

Maybe there’s a little Bill in all of us?  I hope it’s in me!


Week 13: Road to Success!

What the heck IS success?  I love Earl Nightingale’s definition –Success is the progression of a worthy ideal.

I love that.  It’s like my mom used to tell me–Do whatever you want to do but whatever you do, be the BEST at it that you can be.  Whether you are a dishwasher, ditch digger, …whatever…just do it well!

My earliest memories were that I always wanted to help people.  Choosing a career in Nursing was not a huge leap of logic.  I was fortunate to have a high school counselor who told me I simply HAD to get a BSN because by the time I graduated college (which would be 1971) (yes, I’m that old)  having a degree in Nursing rather than any other option, would be essential.  She was so right.  The trend had begun.

By my sophomore year in college, I’d decided on a career in the Army Nurse Corps and to apply for the Army Student Nurse Program.  (accepted!= SUCCESS!)

I was determined to not only graduate, but to pass my Texas State Board of Nursing exams with a score that would earn me licensure in ANY state in the union.  Mission accomplished!  = SUCCESS!

Now I was off to Basic Officer Training!  Learn how to be an officer.  Learn to wear a uniform (CORRECTLY) and look like we belong in it!  SUCCESS!  I won’t go into all of the things we had to learn and then excel in but…it was a goal, and…SUCCESS!

There I was, insignia gleaming, shoes polished, uniform starched, setting goals for myself along the way.

Staff nurse, head nurse, promotion to Captain!  SUCCESS!

Selected for HEAD NURSE position.  SUCCESS!

Selected for Head Nurse Intensive Care Unit .  SUCCESS!

Worked in the VERY challenging Burn Unit at Fort Sam Houston Texas and cared for the most critically burned patients you could NEVER imagine, in the Burn, ICU.  Render tender loving care, to these precious people with dignity and honor.  SUCCESS!

Selected for Advanced Course.  SUCCESS!

Promoted to MAJOR! SUCCESS!

Then, my goal to be admitted to the Army Baylor Program for a Masters degree in  Health Care Administration.  Only two Army Nurses Selected per year.  It was iffy…but…SUCCESS!  I was on my way to be a Nurse Methods Analyst which is like a management consultant for nurses.  Rather than work for the Chief, Department of Nursing, we worked for the comptroller of the hospitals and got an inside view of a different part of health care.

I loved being a Nurse Methods Analyst.  The positions are quite different than normal nursing positions, but our job is to help them do their jobs better, easier, more efficiently.  How does it get better than this?

Promoted to Lieutenant Colonel (LTC) SUCCESS!

Eventually I had my eyes on a staff job working on manpower.  I’d be working for the Assistant Secretary of Defense (Health Affairs) and the office was in the Pentagon.  Well,  even better that that…While it was a Pentagon position, my DESK was in another building…with PARKING and only blocks from a new NORSTROM  department store.  SUCCESS!  🙂

I served the country I loved for 22 years (SUCCESS!) and retired when I decided that there were no more positions I really wanted to fill.    I had a certain level of security with my Army retired pay (SUCCESS!) and now it was time to move on.  what was next?

So, I thought…what would I love to do if I made NO MONEY doing it!  I’d always loved the look of the fabulous decorative painted wall treatments I’d seen.  Could that be it?  Off I went to learn stenciling, decorative wall finishing, marbling, Tromp L’oeil etc.  I studied with some of the very best artists and achieved a certain amount of notoriety in our community.  SUCCESS! (PPN-Creative expression).  I did our designer showhouse for many years and had quite a business going.  I loved helping clients beautify their homes (PPN-Helping others, Recognition for creative work).  I ran in to an old client the other day and she exclaimed…”MaryBeth!  My kitchen looks as beautiful as the day you finished it!)  (7years ago?  SUCCESS!)

07051401_05 07051401_06_1 I absolutely LOVE the finish on this wall, it looks like a textured silk.  I’d say it is my FAVORITE finish to do.  ‘Brushed Suede”.  Designs by Michelle Patterson,  (Hudson River Fine Interiors)  Photography by THE Randal Perry (all photos).  I loved working with Michelle and Randall.  They made my work shine.


Fifteen years of helping others beautify their homes was incredibly gratifying but it took a toll on my health.  Even though I used products deemed safest, I could tell my days were numbered.  “Doctor, my skin turns purple when I paint…I don’t think this is a good thing .”  Umhum… (That’s an answer?  )

So, now, I’m reinventing myself again.  I’ve had to try a few things because this one’s not as clear cut.  I may be a little fuzzy on my how, but it seems that my heart has been very clear (for a long time) that certain primary pivotal needs are locked in stone.

Helping others is definitely in there.  Everything I have ever done that has energized me  has been entwined in helping others.  SUCCESS!

I had to be very security oriented after losing my dad in 1965.  I was only 16.  I’ve linked LIBERTY  to that and having success as an Army Officer and retiring with a pension has given me some measure of SUCCESS!

My HEALTH is very important to me for without health, nothing else really matters.  Can I help others achieve better health too?

We are at the half way point in our MKMMA adventure.  I thought I’d have everything locked in stone by now.  There are still a few loose ends.  but, as we are reading this week…

“We often find that when we secure the things we thought we wanted, they do not have the effect we expected.  That is, the satisfaction is only temporary, or possibly the reverse of what we expected…..

What we desire is really HAPPINESS AND HARMONY-.  if we can be truly happy we shall have everything the world can give.  If we are happy ourselves we can make others happy.

But (19.) we cannot be happy unless we have health, strength, congeniality, friends, pleasant environment sufficient supply, not only to take care of our necessities, but to provide for those comforts and luxuries to which we are entitled!.


I may still be a work in progress, for only God is perfect, but I have had some successes and I strive for more before I am done.  How does it get any better than this?  What else is possible?

I’ll always be working on things to help others.  and, I have my sights on perfect health, (who says things are incurable?)  Did someone make THEM God?  and…I’m going to keep a few other things secret just for now.  Why spoil the surprise!

Wishing everyone a very happy New Year.  May 2014 be YOUR best year ever!


(one definition of my success now…being a good DOG MOM!  Happy dogs, happy life, How does it get better than this?  what else is possible?  )

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Week 12: Thoughts become Things!

The more  I learn, the more interesting this becomes!  How does it get better than this?  What else is possible?

This week we learned that” THINGS are created in the mental or spiritual world before they appear in the outward act or event, by the simple process of governing our thought forces today…we will create the events which will become into our lives in the future, perhaps even tomorrow”.

what?  what does that mean?

As I experienced the happenings and thoughts of this week several things caught my thoughts.   We focus a lot on feelings and as we will learn (have learned) Feelings are the bottom line, really.  Thoughts become things, Ask and you shall receive….yada yada.

I remember a discussion someplace…was it Facebook?  Twitter,  Newsletter???  the idea centered around people with certain physical challenges..maybe cancer, or autoimmune diseases considered incurable, heart disease.  Medical Doctors are free with their opinions that “THIS IS INCURABLE“.   “You only have XX months, (days, minutes) to live”.  “No way to recover”…yada yada.  Really?   I know for a fact that there are people living today, who have had that said to them, and are here to tell about it.  Maybe even there will be someone who reads this post who has had that experience.  ???  (please write!)

How DARE they say that!  Don’t they KNOW the power of suggestion?  the hypnotic power of the white coat?  Did they learn NOTING in medical school?  FIRST, DO NO HARM!    I feel like screaming!

To tell someone THERE IS NO HOPE is like stabbing them in the heart.  First of all…how DO YOU KNOW?  No one, knows everything.  At least, no one standing on this planet.

Just about everyone knows about the placebo effect, but there is also a NOCEBO effect…that happens when people have their hope stolen from them.  Planting the seed of hopelessness …

i had this happen to me.  I’m dealing with a health issue and was sent to a Rheumatologist.  (Name withheld to protect the guilty.)  He tried to talk me into the standard toxic drug regimen (which is strictly contraindicated with the OTHER issue I was dealing with –you would think a doctor would know).  I know from my research that nutritional modifications have been shown to help in many instances, but he sat there and told me…”YOU CAN TRY THAT NUTRITION STUFF BUT IT WON’T WORK.”.  REALLY?  I tried it and I felt better.  I won’t say I have solved it…but how dare him to take away my hope of recovery when he has not read the latest medical literature that contradicts his words.  ??

The point is…our THOUGHTS become THINGS!  WE CAN plant seeds of hope, emotion, love and we CAN heal ourselves!  We can even heal others with prayer!  We are all one. We don’t understand this very well because FEW are teaching it.  We have amazing power when we are united as one.  That is one reason our mastermind is so powerful.  When two or more people are united with a common goal, mountains can be moved.  We are seeing that.  We will see more when all of us really GET IT!

So if we can HEAL ourselves of potentially life threatening diseases, what ELSE can we do!

Gregg Braden says that much of the ancient knowledge that could  help us, and which USED to be in the teachings of the Christian church (and other churches)  …was removed in the 4th century AD.  Yes, it was THERE and was removed and only recently re-discovered.  Of course, most of this knowledge remained in ancient theologies such as Buddism.  Only after the discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls did we begin to regain this knowledge.

To attempt to put it simply…

The more we watch our world, the more our world is influenced by what we are looking for.

Do you constantly watch your weight to the point of obsession?  is it going down?  or up?

Are you constantly watching your body for lumps or defects?  Maybe you are FINDING them?  What are we focused on today?  FEAR?  are you getting more or less of it?

There is a lot of ceremony in many religions.  Say these words, at this time, for this long, etc.  Is THAT THE MAGIC?  the specifics?  NO!

Tibetan monks will tell us that it is NOT the ceremony that is the prayer.  The ceremony is just the way they behave to GET TO THE EMOTION…THE FEELING…. the magic is the FEELING.  THAT is the PRAYER…IT’S THE FEELING THAT IS THE PRAYER!

so, all of the STUFF we do, the things we are learning in MKMMA…it’s part of the magic.  it’s the stuff we do to GET to the feelings and the FEELINGS are the things that are the prayers.  Thoughts become THINGS, but it has to be THOUGHT PLUS EMOTION = FEELINGS!

May each of you have a blessed Christmas, if you are celebrating that…and, actually, even if you don’t celebrate Christmas, I hope that day is special for you!

I hope you have excitement in your life, FOR SOMETHING.  I hope you have thoughts and emotions that generate FEELINGS of Love, happiness, Prosperity, health, strength, harmony, and everything else that means something to you.  Celebrate with friends, and family if you are blessed to be able to do so.  Feel the emotion and may every wish you have that benefits you and others, come true.  Remember those less fortunate, the elderly who may be alone,  our furry friends, and the soldiers that keep our values safe and who are alone this Christmas.  May you feel the excitement of giving, and the rush of receiving.  This is the time of the year when we tend to focus on giving and receiving and it’s good to just keep it all in perspective.

Love and Blessings, to all!  I love you!

Week 11: What’s it all about?


Well, this is NOT the post I was going to write about but this just whacked me on the side of the head so I’m going to go with it.

Every year, my brothers and uncle from my birth family send me a lovely gift.  It is always something I cherish and love.  But, I started thinking this year.  (I also send them something I hope is memorable for them but really, they HAVE everything they need, could ever use, and how much more stuff do we all need?)

So, I suggested that instead of STUFF for us, we pitch in and buy a GOAT (or whatever livestock) from Heifer.org and give that to people who really will have their life changed by our gift.  (Not to mention this is in DIRECT alignment with my ultimate goal of Philanthropy but I was not thinking of that at the time.)  My brothers immediately wrote back in total agreement and one of them also donates to an organization in Michigan that buys warm clothes, coats, hats, gloves for kids in Hillsdale County.  He has a special fund established in memory of his dear wife who died way too young just months after their wedding.

So, who knew I came from a heritage of giving?

I was so touched by their immediate agreement to Give that I posted to my Facebook page and wow.  I have so many friends with great ideas for giving!  The one that really motivated me to post this was Marea Adejuwon who said that a friend of hers has their kids doing this every year for their birthday …since they were 5 years old!  wow!

I confess that I run out of money before I run out of causes, but hey, if we all do a little bit, it helps.  I am starting small and my goal is to ADD ZEROS to MY DONATIONS as soon as I can.

So, that’s the scoop.  We are paying it forward, backward, any direction we can.  If you have a favorite giving thing, feel free to post.  It may give others a new idea.

Note to self:   keep a running list somewhere on my blog (in addition to my DMP which needs updating).  So much need out there and this, the season of giving, well it just seems like a great time to talk about it.

As I sit here on the sofa with my precious dogs…I feel especially blessed.  We have a comfy home, comfy beds, enough food, and enough to share.  We went to a holiday party and shared a table with a man who was talking about a woman who works at a convenience store who is down on her luck.  He told us of an antique toy he cleaned up to give her for her kids.  Wow.  He escaped before I could think of something to do for them, but I think I know where to find him.

Tis truly a season of love and sharing.  Thanks to all!

Philanthropy even in little bits, is still Philanthropy, right?  My goal is EXTRAVAGANT Philanthropy. : )    Let the good times roll!

Week 10: Shakin’ things up?

Whoa!  this week started off with a new scroll from OG and he had me ini tears from the start!  It took me the whole scroll to calm down from the animal abuse in the first paragraph!  I do wish he could have found another way to make his point but stabbing baby bulls!  Good Grief, OG!  I understand the thing about perseverance, but it really still bothers me to read that passage.

I’m hoping that as things felt like they were falling apart the last week or so that it means they are now beginning to fall together!  I was not as successful with the exercises of staring at the wall as I have been with the other exercises but maybe that will improve (or not).  I have to confess that my mind kept wandering …thinking…I really need to PAINT that wall…and the ceiling needs it even more.  Sigh.  another thing for the TO DO list.  But not for this week!

I’ve been really distracted from things partially because of some nagging chronic pain which is on my TO DO LIST of things to vanquish.  I’m finally able to say “I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious , happy and HEALTHY, without thinking, LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE.  so it is  GOOD thing and I am visualizing myself happy, healthy, happy, healthy!

Yes, I will persist until I succeed with my west for true health for without health, nothing else much matters.  I can’t let a less than perfect body get in the way of my other goals.  So I will keep on, keeping on.  Actually, I feel a bit better today so I consider that a signal that I’m making progress.  Woo hoo!

I’m off to Las Vegas to attend the launch of the company I am with… the one I envision bringing me to the achievement of  one of my primary goals, Liberty.  I’m so blessed to be seeing some dear friends while there and attend the wedding of my darling friend, Penelope, at the Elvis Wedding Chapel!  If that doesn’t put a smile on your face, I don’t know what will!

So while the week started off a bit rocky, it is ending on a high note!  I have all my readings recorded (with music) so I can listen at will, whether on the plane, taxi, or whatever!  Just have to tweak my DMP, stuff a few more cards in my stash, grab my pens and hope that week 11 notes arrive in time to print them out before I leave for the plane tomorrow.  If not I’ll do my best and catch up with I return on Monday.  Hate to leave my boys (Sweetie and the dogs) but they will survive too! Time to pack!

See you next week, friends!

Week 9: I am what I think?

I have to admit, this is a somewhat mind-blowing, and embarrassing idea!  If I am not what I want to be then that must mean my thoughts have been flawed.  Well, I’m not a total screw up but there are enough chinks in my armor that I am definitely a work in progress.  Now the question becomes, how to fix it! and why didn’t anyone give me an instruction manual long ago?  Seems kind of unfair and unwise to set someone loose in the world without some sort of reliable direction.   Ya think?

“I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.”

That is my goal.  Scientists now say we recreate our cells every 11 months… so If I repeat this often enough, in 11 months there will be a whole new me, recreated the way I wanted me in the first place?  Sweet!

Affirm the good and the bad will vanish!  (promise?)  Well, it’s worth a shot.  My friend Maggie, always asks the universe….”HOW can it get better than this?  (really, please tell me how, cuz I’d really love to know! ).  What else is possible!” This leaves the doors wide open for lots of incredibly good stuff to come rushing in, even if it is already great, and if things are less that fabulous…well, it shows the universe you are OPEN to the good stuff.  I’m open, really open to that!

This was a tough week.  I thought I had all my ducks in a row but they wouldn’t stay lined up.  Things I THOUGHT were true, are in question.  They MAY be true, but then again, they MAY not be.  I kept getting conflicting pieces of evidence.  What to do?  Ignore them?  Can’t do that.  So Now…I have to spend time I could be spending more productively, on intelligence gathering, fact checking, etc because one of my core values is integrity and I’m not going to do something if there is any doubt that what I understand to be true,  is not true.  Here I am fighting to keep everything I have thought about, focused on, dreamed about, from going up in smoke.  It’s a little more work, but at least I’ll be able to sleep better at night.  This was certainly not in my schedule though, and it’s thrown me off a bit. (who am I kidding, it totally knocked me off my feet).   Now back to those ducks!  I’d really like to be back on track with my focus on my goals. pivotal needs,  rather than roadblocks.  Focus on solutions.

Focus, visualize, affirm the good and the bad will vanish.  Thoughts become things so I must redouble my efforts to keep my thoughts where I want them.

This week we have shapes with nothing written on them.  Great!  So, i’m cutting the shapes out of construction paper and making little mobiles.  Ha ha!  what fun.

I still have my WHY an my WHAT, but my HOW seems to dangling in the breeze.  How appropriate!  This is my first one.  have to work on style !


“I am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.”

“I Am whole, perfect, strong, powerful, loving, harmonious and happy.”



How does it get any better than this?  What ELSE is possible!  <g>


My AHA moment for tonite tweeting w/ @Mkmma_Kellie @  our “Skinned Knees” versions of our journeys!  #MkMmA.  sense of humor very helpful!  I never know really where to post these things but hope this will give someone a smile, maybe a laugh and a…yeah…I felt that way too.  I find a sense of humor is a huge asset as we negotiate the lemons in life.  When life gives you lemons, learn (very quickly) to love Lemonade.  If things didn’t go awry sometimes, what would you have to talk about.  People who just talk about their successes, can sound like braggarts .  but when you can joke about your mistakes and learn from them…who doesn’t like that!  As for the holidays….tell me what you “got” for an important holiday some years back.  Bet you can’t name that many.  but…if I ask about the things that went awry, like the cat bringing down the Christmas tree, or the Turkey burninging (burnt rolls were my mother in laws version of an oven timer …Lol) and then the year the electrician wired the new stove incorrectly and we had to do a 12 pound crown roast on the grill?  yeah…how many of THOSE can you remember?  probably most!  so it is the people and happenings that make the memories, not the stuff…and isn’t that fun?  I’m thinking i really LIKE turning lemons into lemonade!  As for the skinned knees?  well, I know that when I was learning to ski (downhill) I knew if I was falling sometimes, I was also learning…How far can I lean without a wipeout?  just THAT far.  maybe, falling , “skinning knees” along the way, is just the price we pay for progress.  Keep on, Keeping on.

Week 8-MKMMA– Think about it!

yup, you GET what you think about most of the time!  You can’t mope around worrying about every little thing then spend an hour of quality GOOD THINKING a day and expect your life to be miraculous!  Gosh, Really?    Think about the lives of Emerson and Carlyle.  Emerson LOVED the good and his life was a symphony of peace and harmony.  Carlyle HATED the bad and his life was a record of perpetual discord and disharmony.  As revealed in previous posts and comments…I’m not perfect (yeah, I know…total shock to all <g>)  but I think of myself as a positive person but there are some obvious chinks in my armor!  EEEK!  Get the superglue!  Plaster, Epoxy.  what will help!

Mental diet to the rescue.  Now…don’t even THINK this is all that easy.  So many THINGS to  bombard us with.  Even with no TV to distract!  email,  Facebook (even tho I have reduced that to the bare minimums)  LinkedIN…Newspaper (I don’t read but it is laying around for the occasional glimpse.  It takes a strong will to catch the bullet and not let it sink in.  think SUPER WOMAN!  catch those babies in my HAND and toss them away!

Get this….”any line of thought, persisted in cannot fail to produce it’s result in the character, health and circumstances of the individual.”

All this talk about Neuropeptides …things that happened to us YEARS ago, not resolved, can whack us across the face NOW! THAT HAPPENED TO ME!  Who knew!  Now…knowledge is a good thing and now that I KNOW this, I’m working on it, releasing old sadnesses.  But really.  Who out there, losing a beloved DAD at 16 would not feel like your rug was just whipped out beneath you?  I thought I was being really strong, but the effects linger.  (Whoa, this is way to much info and people are going to read this?  gulp).  well, too bad.  maybe it will help someone else.

Losing my dad at 16 was just about the worst thing that ever happened to me and I tried to convince myself it was a “good ” thing too (yeah, I’m a Pollyanna).  It made me self reliant, and I knew I had to count on myself since I knew I’d always be there.  (notice the terrific grasp of the totally obvious !).    But, I suppose it also prevented me from letting some people get really close.  What IF they got too close and what IF they left too!  cuz we all know that you can’t count on MEN they either DIE or leave (no offense, guys…this was a 16 year old mind.)

So maybe is is no wonder, while I THINK I am positive, there are lingering things sabotaging me all these years.  Guess I need to SNAP OUT OF IT!

Working on that this week for sure.  I keep RE-BOOTING my mental diet!

As I took my precious dogs for a run today (thank goodness I have sporting dogs (German Shorthair Pointers) who NEED to run.  It makes me get out there with them because I am such a good DOG MOM.  <G>  but I have to wonder if I don’t get as much or MORE benefit.  The cool air blows through my mind and I instantly feel better.  I even have my Scroll 11 (with music) recorded so I could listen –three times!  DO IT NOW, DO IT NOW, DO IT NOW.    and…I  AM what I WILL to be!  Over and over!  Adding Music to all of these readings has  been fabulous because I really respond to music!

Visualizing a battleship being created in REVERSE was difficult for me.  Really.  a Battleship?  i could see a purpose, but I just know so little about battleships!  Kept drifting off to the TITANIC.  Not that I know more about that, but it had nicer lines.   : )  for a while, anyway.    sigh.

I can see I have MORE work to do on me.  I loved making the dream board but I need more.  Next project…MIND MOVIE!

MINE is not ready but as a treat for reading my ramblings…here’s a link for you!  It’s the award winning Mind Movie by Lila Sakura…she won the award for BEST in 2007.  Love it.  hope you will too!  I’ll be working on mine as a creative self development project!  Things are starting to happen in a positive way.  The owner of one of the companies I dabble in called ME looking for leaders.  Really?  He did get my attention.  and…He did say I could use some of the photos from his website for my mind Movie!  Maybe I’ll rise to the top!  None of us know where things will take us. It’s important to have an open mind.  And…as my friend Maggie always says…How does it get better than this?  (really, TELL ME!)  AND…What else is possible!

Here’s to you, Maggie!  Let’s find out!